Turning Lead Into Gold

    The only thing that is more painful than loving everything, is not.

    The heart was made to love. To give. However many layers of ego and hurt and lies and desires you layer over that, it doesn't change the fact it exists to love. The sun continues to shine behind the clouds, even if you put an entire planet between you and the sun, it is still there, still shining.

    And what does that have to do with turning lead into gold? In the spiritual sense, the concept of transformation, is just about letting go. It is a mental process of understanding, your heart is always shining, it is always the sun, you can close your eyes to it, but you can't stop it. The lies we tell ourselves, the illusion that we can be less than what we inherently are, are the impurities. They don't prevent us from being gold, they convince us that we are lead in spite of the fact there is only gold.

    Your heart is generating compassion for all things. It is continuously putting out energy in the form of love. And this why many people attempting spiritual practices tend to just go in circles. The desire to be better in itself will manifest improvements, but progress will always be limited. Trying to become gold, to become a more pure being, is like a fog chasing its own tale. You already are gold. Don't try to be that, understand you already are that, and you have never been anything else, because you can't be anything else.

    Nothing you have ever done can make your heart less than what it is. Nothing that has ever been done to you can make your heart less than what it is. Spiritual practice should not have a goal of becoming, only experiencing. Experience yourself for who you are. To go beyond the concepts and ideas, letting go of the wanting to be something more, and experience yourself for who you are.

    When you desire to be something more, you lose sight of the fact that you already are. And so you go in circles, and you wear yourself out, and the not becoming more makes you feel you are failing, making it harder to just stop and experience the truth. You cannot fail at being what you are. You are still the sun, even when you wrap yourself in clouds. Just sit and be the sun, don't even worry about the clouds of doubt and ego and wants, they will dissipate in time on their own. Just experience you as the sun, feel the light you have always radiated. 

    There is no force in the universe that can turn gold into lead. You were born gold, whatever makes you imagine that now you are lead, let it go. 

    And as you learn to experience yourself, you will start to see the clouds other people formed between what the world has led them to believe they are, and what they truly are. And you will understand that you were there too. And you will feel that without a doubt, as much as it often hurts to love people who are suffering, it hurts so much more to deny your own heart and your own experience of self, and not love them unconditionally.